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So ill… So sick so ill... so sick spit in the mirror at an image that won't go away fell into a trap thought it was love just... dysfunctional needs a need to feel power to be in control to be a hero... your hero a show of strength providing protection from this evil world a need for your acceptance a wonderful high... your approval over time... this need needed more more approval... more love more acceptance yet... got less fantasies were lies love was manipulation to fulfill needs dysfunctional needs so ill... so sick |
If I am I because I am I And you are you because you are you Then I am and you are. But if I am I because you are you And you are you because I am I Then I am not and you are not. - Rabbi Mendel |
Humiliation somewhere in the humiliation there is a sense of excitement it's the thrill of the chase to be caught tied up in emotions and feelings beyond our control to willingly be forced to look inside and find something released through insecurities the humiliation... throws away our childhood boundaries the anxiety leads to fantasies illusions never dreamed before at least... consciously locked doors blown away to a new world providing a freedom to explore a new journey begins following someone else's rules agreeing to the humiliation which over time leaves and acceptance follows filling the soul with peace "I'm OK" |
Finally Walking Together never thought you'd see the fantasy it's led to a little insecurity a part of me has been revealed the secret has been unsealed ashamed of what you might think my ego began to shrink you didn't laugh...you didn't cry wasn't sure what was going on inside kept quiet... someday... I thought you'd want to talk but you played some games the fantasy was now driving me insane hot as fire... cold as ice at times angry... at times nice you'd walk away... than let me in didn't know if I sink or swim couldn't just walk away wanted the fantasy to stay I know it's pure insanity please God... please help me see the child that's buried within wishing to be free from this sin tonight I'll pray that you'll set me free so we can walk together... You and me |
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