by embracing the unknown
There had to be so deep underlying plan to somehow keep my job. So I hung on. I watched as co-workers began to leave as
they found new employment. And with every job lost I saw my employers celebrate with them as they found a new source of
As the last day of employment got closer, I began to leave the world of denial and began the bargaining phase. I tried to
combine two or even three jobs into one. It didn’t matter if someone already had a specific job, I was trying to worm my way into
their position. I didn’t want them to lose their job, I was just hoping to fit in.
If they had a 40 hour a week job, I thought if they would give me ten hours of theirs and another worker would give me another
ten – than I would have twenty hours and they would both have thirty hours. They would be happy with that wouldn’t they? Even
though they would lose money, my employer would get to keep such a valuable employee as myself.
The day got closer and no one was interested in my idea and slowly some depression set in as well as some anger. I began
throwing people under the bus. To hell with their job, I needed mine! To hell with those who had small children at home, I had
In the end I did lose my job, as well as some friendships. In hindsight, it was the best thing that could have happened. I found
new paths for employment and improved my experiences for future employment. I found out that I could be involved with
security. Later, I became a master baker. I gained trust and was given jobs that involved having keys to many businesses and
came in contact with different amounts of money.
None of it would have been possible if I didn’t lose that job as a production manager. Yes, I was a valuable employee. Over the
years though, I have obtained some humility and realize that no matter how valuable I am to any employer I am replaceable.
In the end, if a job is over – it is over. Don’t fight the universe trying to save it. All you are doing is losing time, losing energy,
and losing yourself. Have confidence in yourself that there is something new out there just waiting to be explored. If you’re
valuable with one employer, than you’ll be valuable with another. Don’t live life in the past, take that leap of faith and jump into
Yes, it can be scary and at times even a bit lonely, yet it will always be exciting!
The stages of grief deal with many more things than just
death. Grief can be seen when your sports team loses the
championship. It can be seen when a relationship ends. It can
even be seen in the loss of a job.
I experienced this type of lose in my younger years. I knew I
was a good and reliable employer. I was a production manager
at a turkey farm. Yet, I was informed that my job was
disappearing to help lower costs and improve profitability.
I understood the logic of it all, yet I knew (deep conceited
thoughts) that I was irreplaceable. They needed me!
My employers did give me enough of a notice to let me find
another job. In fact, they told me whatever they could do to
find new employment they would do it. I did see one of the
recommendations they gave for a job interview I had. They
spoke about me in glowing terms. They truly respected me as
an employee and valued my time there. So, why did they want
to get rid of me?